Triggers…

Yesterday, November 5th, in Texas a gunman walked into a Texas church and killed half of the people in that church. He was an Air Force Veteran who like Joseph De Riso had been kicked out because of violence against women. Also like Joseph De Riso, he cannot legally own a gun.  Moreover like Joseph De Riso, did that stop him from purchasing a gun? NO!

It is alleged the female and child he committed the act of violence lived in this town and the mother in law attended the church. Like Joseph De Riso, I am sure this asshole made credible threats that the courts didn’t take seriously and his cock sucking family made excuses for his existence and every violent action; of course, blaming the victim.

The shooter had not one but FOUR weapons! FOUR ILLEGALLY OBTAINED weapons! This puts the fear that like this evil piece of shit that Joseph De Riso will again try to kill me.

So again this means I will forever isolate myself and not go outside. I will again cancel my much needed doctors appointments and stay in my room. I will not get much sleep because of the dreams I know that will happen. My pain levels will be higher than normal because my anxiety levels are high. This adds to why I don’t sleep which means I am also psychically ill. I can’t deal with this shit much longer. I hate my life. I wish he would die. I really do.

A lady got murdered from the same county where Joseph Michael De Riso got let off for raping and trying to murder me. She had a restraining order on her attacker. Go figure. I swear to you Hillsborough County doesn’t care about their Domestic Violence. They would rather see the women killed than actually put the offender in jail.

This was just last week. I kept myself in my room after I read about it because I know that Joseph is out there some place just waiting for me to be off my guard and he is going to finish what he started. I am a lot weaker than I used to be and I can’t fight back now.

I can’t live my life like this. I hate my life. All because of Joseph Michael De Riso. All because the cops don’t protect you until it is too late. All because the courts don’t protect you until it is too late. I hate not being able to leave my house for weeks on end after events like this or reading about it in the paper because of what it does to me.

I FUCKING HATE JOSEPH MICHAEL DE RISO! I WISH HE WOULD DIE! I WISH HE WOULD JUST OVER DOSE AND GET IT OVER WITH! WHAT HE DID TO ME IS GIVE  ME A LIFE SENTENCE OF HELL ON EARTH! I WISH HE WOULD FUCKING DIE!

And then the nerve of him to say he has PTSD. No mother fucker you have a guilty fucking conscious for attempting to murder me!!! You have a guilty conscious for raping me! You have a guilty conscious for every woman you have ever beat and raped! You have a guilty conscious for the professor you hit and killed while high! You have a guilty conscious about all those women on the beach that you told me about! You have a guilty conscious about that baby you told me about! No mother fucker that isn’t PTSD! That is called being a piece of shit scum bag!